So who or what is God? God, if God exists, simply IS. God cannot really be given human qualities and certainly cannot be put in anyone's box.
Can I "worship" God? I surrender to the Totality that is Godding, I suppose; but I cannot sing hymns and chant psalms to this God. It seems artificial, forced, fake. My hope is to LOVE this God, if that is possible.
And what about death and what, if anything, comes after? If nothing comes after of which we are conscious, then the whole thing is a farce. I will not slobber over a God who allows me to be annihilated when my life ends. If we continue somehow, then, I want to love this God with my whole being--no doctrine, dogma--just pure love.
Frankly, I wish I could let this issue go, but I cannot. A "God seed" seems to have been planted within my heart and is blooming; no amount of rationalization can erase it. It does come perilously close at times! That being said, however, I cannot stomach easy answers and cutesy little hymns...no more belief, just being.