Letting go is difficult sometimes, no matter how long you've been on the journey. My goal with this blog is to post every day (at least during the Summer); so much for human-made plans! Nothing flowed yesterday, but a bunch of starts and stops.It's maddening being someone who loves to write, and then have nothing come out. Seems I needed the reminder that it's not about me at all.
How often we delude ourselves, thinking we're in control. Guess what? We're not. We do this in the spiritual life, often thinking if we believe the right things or do the right spiritual practices, we'll get somewhere. When this is done rigidly, it crushes it and makes a mockery of religion. Religion then becomes something to "master" like any other subject. Then, upon so doing, we want everyone else to be just like us. Doesn't work.
Religion provides markers along the path, but we have to let go and trust our Beloved to guide us. This is a relationship. Most folks are so terrified of their own free will to do this because they might just change in the process. Love, like grace, is not cheap. A heart that loves, ultimately bleeds. Jesus shows us that.
Religious fundamentalism, whether right or left, kills the soul; much New Age spirituality suffocates it. How can one really grow if the focus is so much on the self, as it is, ultimately, in both? Yes, the Reign of God is within, as Jesus tells us, but we only get to realize that when we let go of our need to control, looking beyond ourselves to the Christ that speaks through serving others.
Lord, save me!